When the Next Wave Comes

I. I grew up in a small town on the ocean.  I remember spending whole afternoons in the waves with my sisters, boogie boarding.  Admittedly, lying belly down on a stubby foam board was not as cool as surfing, but we did what we could.  We lived for the afternoons where the swells were just […]

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Don’t Cancel On Yourself

It was 5:38 when I got The Call. I was already dressed, had my shoes on, Babysitter was arriving at 6:00. Dinner was in the oven, Bubs was using me as a climbing gym. I was ready, more than ready to buck outta there. “I can’t do it,” My dear friend on the other side […]

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Unhappy: An Open Letter to My Children

Dear children, my job is to make you unhappy, about half of the time. I love you too much to let it be otherwise. In my philosophy, disappointment should come from home first.  Here, within the loving environment of our family,  should be your first point of reference for that sensation. Just like you should […]

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Mommy Brain Manifesto

We’ve all heard it.  It’s a very popular phrase right now and wherever two or three mothers are gathered, it will come into use. “Mommy brain!” we laugh with the newly pregnant mama who forgets her car keys leaving her own baby shower. “Mommy brain!” we sigh at each other over cups of coffee. “Mommy […]

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Safe and Sound

Now, this is the scary stuff.  This stuff you only dare discuss with your best friend on a long walk so that you don’t have to look her in the eye.  Or what comes to mind when you stare into the flickering campfire late into the night. But this just may also be the stuff […]

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Freak-Out’s and Trusting

When it really matters, when in life a giant black sinkhole opens up downstream, and you don’t have any paddles to escape, there are essentially two kinds of prayers: Freak-Out’s, and Trusting. How can you tell the difference? The clue is to hear the prayers themselves. Listen to this one: “Oh God oh God oh […]

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I Have “Anything”

Sick babies don’t sleep. Mine didn’t that night.  In my delirium, I lost track how many times he yowled and I arose to soothe or nurse him.  It was a mystery illness, showing little but a low-grade fever for a few days, and a cranky demeanor.  I didn’t get the fever, but the crankiness sure […]

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Worm Food

Nobody Likes me, everybody hates me, I’m gonna eat some worms. First you take their heads off then you skoosh their guts out… I’ll stop there. But you know it might be the beginnings of a gloomy day when that’s your alarm clock. I disentangled myself from five-year-old, warning her that she only had two […]

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THIS

Something has been grabbing my brain lately with the most inexplicable sensation of pleasure, and I hear myself exclaiming: “This!”  I yelled as I ran through the trees on the mud run with my best friend. “This!” I sighed as I sat in the sand with my husband and baby, while the girls built castles […]

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Girls, Don’t Read My Blog

It’s not worth it.  It’s not worth missing out on something way better.  I can crack a joke, and give you a bump of encouragement, but I cannot change your life.  I cannot defeat the powers of darkness in your world, and I cannot wipe every tear from your eye. That would be Jesus. If […]

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