The Toe Jam of Life

I was clipping my toenails this evening. I know. Lovely imagery. You’re welcome. Every once in a while, I like to meditate on the humanity of Jesus by imagining Him doing whatever I’m doing at the moment. It helps me feel closer to Him. So, naturally, I asked myself: “Would Jesus Christ have ever given […]

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To Open My Emotional Toolbox

I bend down, reaching under a shelf.  I find the hidden handle of a heavy metal box.  It scrapes the floor as I pull it out into the light.  A latch un-clicks and the lid creaks open.  Layers of metal shapes lie inside.  Some look scuffed and worn.  Others shine new. This?  This is my […]

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New Year’s Day: First Thing Come Spring

New Year’s Day is all wrong.  You can blame Caesar for it. Look outside:  It’s the dead of winter.  Does anyone else feel just a little weird about a new year beginning in the worst possible time of year?  The animal kingdom has it figured out: they wait until the warmth of spring to have […]

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The Nativity: When God Doesn’t Listen to Our Plans

Mary’s birthplan didn’t work.  How do I know?  Well, what new mom dreams of having her baby in an animal barn, on the floor, and laying him to rest in a feeding trough with flies buzzing overhead?  The fact that she didn’t get a terrible infection from the unsanitary conditions was proof alone that God […]

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SOMETHING to Get Us Through the Season

‘Tis the season to be miserable. I practice thankfulness.  I get outside in the sunshine.  I eat an extra cookie.  I feel bad about that, then I eat an extra salad.  I feel empty after that, so I eat an extra turkey leg. Extra, extra, extra. ‘Tis the season to overdo just about everything.  What’s […]

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Cheer Yourself On

Grumbling was definitely more my style. I stood high up on the ladder in the bedroom, with a bucket of paint in one hand, and an edging brush in the other. Thirty minutes ago I finished putting all the kids to bed.  Ten minutes ago I finished cleaning the dinner dishes, and packing school lunches […]

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The Fire: This Small Precious Time

You who live in Northern California, I have a question for you.  You, who has lived under the smoke and listened for evacuation orders: what details do you remember from these last few weeks of the fires? Now, here’s another question for the Mama’s: Do you remember your baby’s infancy?  What details do you remember?  The […]

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Return to “Normal”

I finished modifying two N95 breathing masks to fit my childrens’ small faces.  This week their school re-opened.  The principal emailed parents, suggesting we pack masks in our children’s backpacks for them to wear during recess if we were concerned about the smoke from the wildfires that burned up our county.  We were told to […]

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Survivor’s Guilt

I ran away. I did not lose my house.  I was not in the mandatory evacuation zone.  Yet, after 4 days in the smoke, living just miles away from the flames destroying my town, I left.  I don’t wan’t to tell anyone that.  Mine was not a story of heroism.  But also, mine was not […]

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