The Toe Jam of Life

I was clipping my toenails this evening. I know. Lovely imagery. You’re welcome. Every once in a while, I like to meditate on the humanity of Jesus by imagining Him doing whatever I’m doing at the moment. It helps me feel closer to Him. So, naturally, I asked myself: “Would Jesus Christ have ever given […]

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The Nativity: When God Doesn’t Listen to Our Plans

Mary’s birthplan didn’t work.  How do I know?  Well, what new mom dreams of having her baby in an animal barn, on the floor, and laying him to rest in a feeding trough with flies buzzing overhead?  The fact that she didn’t get a terrible infection from the unsanitary conditions was proof alone that God […]

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Cheer Yourself On

Grumbling was definitely more my style. I stood high up on the ladder in the bedroom, with a bucket of paint in one hand, and an edging brush in the other. Thirty minutes ago I finished putting all the kids to bed.  Ten minutes ago I finished cleaning the dinner dishes, and packing school lunches […]

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Survivor’s Guilt

I ran away. I did not lose my house.  I was not in the mandatory evacuation zone.  Yet, after 4 days in the smoke, living just miles away from the flames destroying my town, I left.  I don’t wan’t to tell anyone that.  Mine was not a story of heroism.  But also, mine was not […]

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Brain Charges: Dropped

“Who will bring any charge against those whom God has chosen? It is God who justifies. Who then is the one who condemns? No one. Christ Jesus who died—more than that, who was raised to life—is at the right hand of God and is also interceding for us.”  Romans 8:33-34 Who will bring a charge against […]

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Freak-Out’s and Trusting

When it really matters, when in life a giant black sinkhole opens up downstream, and you don’t have any paddles to escape, there are essentially two kinds of prayers: Freak-Out’s, and Trusting. How can you tell the difference? The clue is to hear the prayers themselves. Listen to this one: “Oh God oh God oh […]

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I Have “Anything”

Sick babies don’t sleep. Mine didn’t that night.  In my delirium, I lost track how many times he yowled and I arose to soothe or nurse him.  It was a mystery illness, showing little but a low-grade fever for a few days, and a cranky demeanor.  I didn’t get the fever, but the crankiness sure […]

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To Give Your Best

Have you ever had a meal brought to you?  Say, you had a sickness, or a surgery, or a baby, or lost a loved one, and a dear friend shows up at your door holding out hot home-cooked food.  It felt pretty special, right? It IS pretty special.  When our baby came, our church coordinated […]

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Transformation of a Mama

Transformation can happen quite quickly: a baby bump finally pops out, suddenly leaving those previous pants impossible to wear.  Birth, though intense, realistically takes only a matter of hours, not weeks.  In an instant I meet my baby for the first time, and something inside of my heart cracks open.  I am transformed. Transformation also […]

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