Steph Lenox

Everyday Resilience In Christ

The phantom smell of smoke still tingles my nose as I take a deep breath and look out the window of my sister’s house.  The Sierra Nevada’s rise like soldiers outside: lumbering, protecting.  In order to escape the smoke from the fires, I drove my children for hours and hours today to arrive at my …

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People congratulate babies on the weirdest things. Good hair, big eyes, no drool, quiet cries. “How nice,” they say. “That cry is so quiet.” As if in the middle of the night a quieter cry is somehow easier to answer. When all you want to do is sleep but your little one is calling, the …

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Dear children, my job is to make you unhappy, about half of the time. I love you too much to let it be otherwise. In my philosophy, disappointment should come from home first.  Here, within the loving environment of our family,  should be your first point of reference for that sensation. Just like you should …

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The moment you had that child in your arms, they moved into your heart, your brain, and your body, literally changing your brain chemistry.  A piece of your brain was switched on, while other bits were switched off. Congratulations! You are now the proud owner of a mommy brain.

Sick babies don’t sleep. Mine didn’t that night.  In my delirium, I lost track how many times he yowled and I arose to soothe or nurse him.  It was a mystery illness, showing little but a low-grade fever for a few days, and a cranky demeanor.  I didn’t get the fever, but the crankiness sure …

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Nobody Likes me, everybody hates me, I’m gonna eat some worms. First you take their heads off then you skoosh their guts out… I’ll stop there. But you know it might be the beginnings of a gloomy day when that’s your alarm clock. I disentangled myself from five-year-old, warning her that she only had two …

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