When it really matters, when in life a giant black sinkhole opens up downstream, and you don’t have any paddles to escape, there are essentially two kinds of prayers: Freak-Out’s, and Trusting. How can you tell the difference? The clue is to hear the prayers themselves. Listen to this one: “Oh God oh God oh …

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Sick babies don’t sleep. Mine didn’t that night.  In my delirium, I lost track how many times he yowled and I arose to soothe or nurse him.  It was a mystery illness, showing little but a low-grade fever for a few days, and a cranky demeanor.  I didn’t get the fever, but the crankiness sure …

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Something has been grabbing my brain lately with the most inexplicable sensation of pleasure, and I hear myself exclaiming: “This!”  I yelled as I ran through the trees on the mud run with my best friend. “This!” I sighed as I sat in the sand with my husband and baby, while the girls built castles …

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It’s not worth it.  It’s not worth missing out on something way better.  I can crack a joke, and give you a bump of encouragement, but I cannot change your life.  I cannot defeat the powers of darkness in your world, and I cannot wipe every tear from your eye. That would be Jesus. If …

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They didn’t ask, and I didn’t tell.  Well, much, anyway. The couple stood in my living room.  Well, The wife did, bent over the chair, eyeing it with fierce delight.  The husband smiled at her from the doorway, approvingly. I sold my rocking chair that day. To a couple, five-ish years younger than me. They …

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  There is another one. I just opened the front door and stepped into my living room.  My eyes scanned the edges and corners of the floor. There is another, along the hall.  And there, under the chair are two more.  Rumpled and dirty and inside out.  The small white bits of cloth blown and …

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