To Open My Emotional Toolbox

I bend down, reaching under a shelf.  I find the hidden handle of a heavy metal box.  It scrapes the floor as I pull it out into the light.  A latch un-clicks and the lid creaks open.  Layers of metal shapes lie inside.  Some look scuffed and worn.  Others shine new. This?  This is my…

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SOMETHING to Get Us Through the Season

‘Tis the season to be miserable. I practice thankfulness.  I get outside in the sunshine.  I eat an extra cookie.  I feel bad about that, then I eat an extra salad.  I feel empty after that, so I eat an extra turkey leg. Extra, extra, extra. ‘Tis the season to overdo just about everything.  What’s…

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She Has To Cry

People congratulate babies on the weirdest things. Good hair, big eyes, no drool, quiet cries. “How nice,” they say. “That cry is so quiet.” As if in the middle of the night a quieter cry is somehow easier to answer. When all you want to do is sleep but your little one is calling, the…

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Trash Can Vacations

There is a time in life.  A very special time in the life of any bouncing, well-manicured young wife.  A time when she leans in to to her husband, feeling his arms wrapping around her, and whispers into his neck, “Oh honey, let’s have a baby.” Fast forward a bit. There is another time in…

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Post-Holiday Disappointment

It’s over.  The whole holiday season.  I know that as a mama and a wife, it was largely my job to work the magic and the social calendar for my family.  I also know that I had a two-month-old baby this season, which automatically forfeited any ambitious holiday schemes that may have been brewing. Over…

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Firewood to Feel Better

Hey girls, come closer.  Yes, come over here.  I’m going to tell you a secret.  It’s deep and dark and my children wouldn’t even believe me if I told them. Here it goes: Once upon a time, I was more than a mommy. I was all these different things, both tough and gentle, both capable…

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