Help For Those of Us Triggered By New Fires

5 Things I’ve Learned Since the 2017 North Bay Fires The sunlight through the smoke in Sonoma County cast an eerie red light on the kitchen floor last week.  In an instant, it all came flooding back.  I instinctively grabbed my laptop.  I checked Cal Fire, the local newspaper, and the Northern California Firestorm Update Facebook…

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The Fire: This Small Precious Time

You who live in Northern California, I have a question for you.  You, who has lived under the smoke and listened for evacuation orders: what details do you remember from these last few weeks of the fires? Now, here’s another question for the Mama’s: Do you remember your baby’s infancy?  What details do you remember?  The…

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Survivor’s Guilt

I ran away. I did not lose my house.  I was not in the mandatory evacuation zone.  Yet, after 4 days in the smoke, living just miles away from the flames destroying my town, I left.  I don’t wan’t to tell anyone that.  Mine was not a story of heroism.  But also, mine was not…

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Mama’s of the Fire

The phantom smell of smoke still tingles my nose as I take a deep breath and look out the window of my sister’s house.  The Sierra Nevada’s rise like soldiers outside: lumbering, protecting.  In order to escape the smoke from the fires, I drove my children for hours and hours today to arrive at my…

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Losing Baby’s Infancy, and All of My Good Ideas

It’s lost.  All of it.  After days of waiting and hours spent on the phone with tech support, some of the most important things in the world to me are gone forever.  I found some things in the process too, but oh how much I lost! I thought, in this modern age, things like that…

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Tree of Life

When I was young, and I feel sure many of you can relate to this, time stretched before me in long lazy swathes. Sure, I had chores and homework, but for the most part, my time was mine. I sat, I dreamed. Most of all, I wrote. Everyone has their thing. Writing has always been…

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