Help For Those of Us Triggered By New Fires

5 Things I’ve Learned Since the 2017 North Bay Fires The sunlight through the smoke in Sonoma County cast an eerie red light on the kitchen floor last week.  In an instant, it all came flooding back.  I instinctively grabbed my laptop.  I checked Cal Fire, the local newspaper, and the Northern California Firestorm Update Facebook…

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A BBQ: Remembering the Fires

The irony wasn’t lost on me. After waiting forever for the tri-tip steak to cook over the coals (as we always do), I sliced up the garlic bread, and tossed the salad.  Calling the kids in out of the pool, we passed around paper plates, and settled in to feast.  Summer was made for times…

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SOMETHING to Get Us Through the Season

‘Tis the season to be miserable. I practice thankfulness.  I get outside in the sunshine.  I eat an extra cookie.  I feel bad about that, then I eat an extra salad.  I feel empty after that, so I eat an extra turkey leg. Extra, extra, extra. ‘Tis the season to overdo just about everything.  What’s…

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The Fire: This Small Precious Time

You who live in Northern California, I have a question for you.  You, who has lived under the smoke and listened for evacuation orders: what details do you remember from these last few weeks of the fires? Now, here’s another question for the Mama’s: Do you remember your baby’s infancy?  What details do you remember?  The…

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Return to “Normal”

I finished modifying two N95 breathing masks to fit my childrens’ small faces.  This week their school re-opened.  The principal emailed parents, suggesting we pack masks in our children’s backpacks for them to wear during recess if we were concerned about the smoke from the wildfires that burned up our county.  We were told to…

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Survivor’s Guilt

I ran away. I did not lose my house.  I was not in the mandatory evacuation zone.  Yet, after 4 days in the smoke, living just miles away from the flames destroying my town, I left.  I don’t wan’t to tell anyone that.  Mine was not a story of heroism.  But also, mine was not…

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